umm..i LOVE eminence skin products..my skin has never felt this awesome :D..
also, i should start packing for NJ but..you know me, i will probably do it on monday haha.
what else, hmmm..idk...
i dont want it to be v-day :(.
i hate being valentine-less. lol

parents argued today. so so soo annoying to be in the middle of everything!
i hate that I have to be the damn adult! and they act like little kids.
anyway.

my weekend SUCKED.
i really wanted to go for sushi tonight, but i didn't.
maybe tomorrow..

anyway, today work was very very busy. i worked 9 hours and did not get a lunch :(.
drank lots of green tea and chamomille tea.
i might be addicted haha.
i'm also addicted to american rag jeans from macys. theyre awesome!
i'm addicted to black jeans too..lol

ummm..well i should go to bed now. i have to wake up at 8 tomorrow :(.
goodnight<3

wow! i cannot believe 2008 is over. it's insane, really.
so many things have happened this year. woooow.
i'm really looking forward to 2009..
i wanna start off fresh..
my resolutions are...to lose weight, of course, like every other year, only this time i HAVE to since i'm gonna be in Kelly's wedding in July..and i dont wanna look like a cow :[.
two, i want to learn French, or another language, i haven't made up my mind..but French would be cool, Lionel at work, (he's french), he said he'd help me. haha.
three, i want to save up money to eventually get a new car. Mini cooper or jeep. idk yet.
four, i want to start doing hair...
i want to.. stop feeling sorry for myself.. i don't wanna feel like i need Chris to do everything..:( i want to appreciate what i DO have more often, and remind myself that things can be much worse.
i want to...go dancing, learn how to walk in 4 inch heels, i want to..learn sign language, i want to stop spending my money on things I DON'T NEED. specially food..
i am going to start eating healthy. and..exercising regularly. i can do it. i totally can.
i'm gonna start running at least 3 times a week.
i want to do Bikram Yoga!
WOW. i want to do so many things. so many.


2008 was an okay year, i mean..i got back with chris (in march), i got my cosmetology license, i got a job, i started doing makeup at my job, i lost..5 lbs, haha..ashley & kelly got engaged! & thanya and i FINALLY had our birthday party, after..like..5 years of wanting one! :) anyway,
I hope 2009 is an awesome for everybody!
There were SO many good memories this year, and i hope 2009 is even better!

♥

i dont get my period for like 309843974 months, and when i do get it, it hurts like shit!
:'( wahhhh!! oh AND my boobs hurt so bad too!

and i'm very, very cold!
and i want it to rain! dammit, sky! rain!

Today is the first day of our diet and Its going okay. I was starving!! But I just ate this tiny salad :( and water for lunch. Idk what I'll have for dinner. I want to win this so bad!!!

on friday my diet begins.
i don't wanna say much cause i don't wanna jinx it..
but i'm gonna work my ass off!
today i bought my running shoes. woowoo :D

This is honestly the worst feeling in the world. I just wanna die. I'd give anything to fix things. Anything. I can only do and say so much...

i seriously COULD NOT be happier about Obama winning!
i really do think he's gonna turn things around and make this a better country.

I, of course, voted NO ON PROP 8. and hoped that everybody else would.
and i am so, so sad that many people voted yes.
i can't believe people are so ignorant and cynical.
i read this morning that the majority of blacks and latinos voted yes on 8.
and .. you would think that after years and years of facing discrimination themselves they would do the right thing and support equality, for EVERYBODY.

:(

"If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was."

so i guess some things are just not meant to be.
you cant force things to happen..
you can't make people act them how you want them to act..
and you can't change a person unless they want to change.
and you know what, that's fine.
i enjoyed EVERY second of it. all of it.
i don't regret anything at all.
i'm gonna miss it. i really am.
no one has ever made me feel the way he did.
i am so, so sad it didn't work out like i thought it was going to.
i had so much planned for us..so many things i wanted to do.
i guess this just isn't our time. our lives are probably a little too different right now..
and i don't blame him for being the way he is or for wanting to do the things he wants to do.

now i just want to keep myself busy.
i want to be so busy that i won't have time to be depressed.
and i won't have time to cry and drive myself crazy.